It's My Life

PEOPLE WOULD YOU QUIT TAKING SHOTS AT ME

I'm beginning to get fed up of the shots people are taking at me because because of some things I've done, and not just letting it slide. Yes, I've done a lot of stupid things, but they way this journalism program works and the amount of gossip surrounding everything is really beginning to piss me off. Now for those reading this, you probably don't care, and it probably won't stop anything, but I've read peoples blogs and I don't like the way I'm being mentioned, and you people know who you are. It's not only that they have to mention the stupid things, but that they make me out to be something I'm not.
First off, I would never go into a crowded mosh pit and just watch a good friend get tramped on. Things get a little crowded and rough inside a mosh pit, and people are ignorant and don't let friends stay near friends. I had enough problems myself, and lost my damn hat to boot. It's not as if I wouldn't try. Also, this particular someone made it sound as if I somehow forced him/her into the mosh pit. I would never, ever do that. I respect other people and the decisions they make.
I also hate being the one ignored and not taken seriously and I have felt that way in many situations, but whatever. If people can't take me seriously, then I won't take them the same way. I know I don't take others seriously, so therefore, I must deserve it lots of times, but it's when I don't deserve it that it bugs me. Or maybe I'm just taking things too seriously right now. Nonetheless, I felt the need to type this blog anyways.
I myself am embarrassed over some of the things I've done, but I just hate the way the world acts sometimes. The only reason I act the way I do is because it's the only way I can act without being depressed. I dislike it when people take shots at people because they can't stand to see them happy, or having a good time. I really hate that. Or when they try and bring others down and tell them what to do. I respect other people, and let them live their lives to the best of my ability. Now I'd like to be treated the same way.
I've got issues and problems myself that I need to deal with, and I'm aware of that. And perhaps this blog may come off as a little harsh to some people. But I just needed to get it off my chest. Anyways, aside from that I'm doing okay.

James: Man, that girl was hot.
Josh: No she wasn't. She was ugly. I'd rather fuck my mom than her.
Lin (a minute or so later): Who's fucking who's mom?

That was a funny conversation between a couple guys in my friend Jordan's quad on residence last night. They had totally conflicting views on this girl this guy was talking about, and how he didn't hook up with her. I thought maybe it was because she had a boyfriend, as he also mentioned, but he said she was ugly. I think it's pretty sad how for some guys the issue of a boyfriend means nothing if they want to hook up, and it's just all about looks.
As far as my friend Lin (full name Yin Chung Lin), well he's just a little out of it sometimes, and responded a little late. It was funny though, and a great line.
Last night was just another night drinking on residence, they do it every Thursday in my friend Jordan's quad. It's pretty fun, although for me last night I held off because Wednesday night was a bit of a gong show. I still had a few beers, just not as much as normal. It was a decent showing, and there was myself, Jordan, Thea, Chris, a couple guys named Josh, James, Louie, Laura, and then Mohammed, Lin and Mariliena all stopped by at some point. For many of you reading this, these are just names I know.

THE SUM 41 CONCERT, AND BUCK A BEER AT THE MAX

After getting the ticket on Monday at the Omega meeting, I was pretty excited and was counting down the days until the Sum 41 concert would hit Sport Mart Place. Well, last night was the night, and what a night it was. Full of ups, downs, and classic moments. Like when I lost my hat, well not really good, but oh well, it happens. It was tough hanging on to it in that mosh pit. Amongst all the body surfers, head bangers, guys pushing, girls scratching, pulling my shirt and elbows and knees to the face, back and chest, looking after my hat was quite the task.
It was about 11 p.m. when I got into the Max, then I settled down with a couple of beers. I mean it was buck a beer, I couldn't hold back. After those two drinks, Mark Hunter and I slammed a couple glasses back, then I had another glass, then I decided it was my turn to get a pitcher, so I went to the counter, ordered one, and brought it back to the table. Alcohol had already hit me at this point. I didn't have a big dinner, so I'm sure that played a factor too.
The rest of the night I spend socializing and dancing, which Meghan said looked ridiculous, I imagine it did, I had a fair bit to drink. After spending some time roaming around and dancing with various girls, I ran into Danielle and Jen ( a couple of first-year journalism students at the bar that night), who I was dancing with earlier, just after last call. I managed to pull off getting a ride home with them which was handy, and easier than getting a cab. The next day I was hungover, but today I'm fine, and ready to go hit the books and do some schoolwork.
Anyways, I'm taking it easy this weekend. I have some work to do, and I can't afford to keep spending money on alcohol. Besides, I've decided to go to the Max again next Wednesday, so I'll take it easy until then.

MY WEEKEND IN CALGARY

My weekend in Calgary was awesome, and a nice break from Kamloops. While we (me, Jordan, Thea and Chris) were in Calgary we went to the Mount Royal College residence to party it up with some friends of Jordan from Grand Forks, we went to see McMahon Stadium and the University of Calgary, and we went out to the back alley, ah the back alley, what a place that was.
Finding John's place on Friday night took some time, but once we found it the rest of the weekend ran smoothly. When we first got into Calgary it was raining, and then once the rain stopped, it was dark out, making it harder to find his place. Prior to going to his place on Friday we went to Joey Tomato for dinner. Man, what a nice place that is! I'd been to the one in Kelowna before which was nice too, but this one was even better.

Chris: They base their hiring on looks. No ugly girls can work here.

Chris was right, and I was saying the same thing. The girls working in this place were all quite attractive, better than anywhere I'd been to in Kamloops. The meal was good too. I got a rotisserie chicken that came with mashed potatoes and carrots. After eating I drove around for a while before finally finding John's place, but I just won't get into that. I found it, that's the main thing.
He lives in an apartment right in downtown Calgary on 15 Ave. SW which is really cool. There's a Safeway just down the road, a few malls nearby, movie theatre just down the road, banks and some nice restaurants. I wish the weekend was longer and I had more time to see all of these places. Ah well, tough break.

Friday night was an okay night, and we all had our share of drinks, particularly Chris. This residence was really cool. It was like a condo with a pool table in the basement, which was being occupied for the duration of the party. Me and John playing around a bit too, and I was sharkin' it up as usual.

After a day of some sight-seeing around the University of Calgary, Saturday night was to be the main event, our whole reason behind going to Calgary, to go to a bar and get ripped. Everything leading up to it was just primary now. We were going to the Back Alley, and it would be some fun.

Unfortunately we never went to Hooters before entering the Back Alley like I wanted. We ended up walking right in that bar at around 9:30, which was cool, because they were serving beers for cheaper before 10, at 2 bottles for $4. After those 2, I ordered another 2, took a shot, ordered another beer, then was ready to hit the dance floor, which was empty for a good 45 minutes after we got there, then got packed. It didn't just get a few up there. As soon as a couple made the first move, it filled up.
After going on and off the dance floor, I basically got on for good after a few more beers. I danced with various girls, one John described as being on the chubby side, and a few others, some younger, some older. In only got the names of a few, and it was so loud in there my ears are still ringing as I'm typing this article, no kidding.
Then the DJ up above the dance floor invited a bunch of girls to pile up on a bar counter, and they did, to promote a special event happening today, damn I wish I was still there. The girls then began tossing away free condoms onto the dance floor, two of which were grabbed by myself. At this point I was a little drunk, but still enjoying myself on the dance floor.
As much as I liked this bar, and the music, it became too loud for my liking. Towards the end of the night I couldn't hear a thing anybody was saying and would just nod and say yes as if I could comprehend what was coming out of their mouths. I didnt' want to get them to repeat it because I probably still wouldn't hear them. I had enough fun as it was grinding with them, and was content with that. I was just saving my vocal chords. Then after getting back to John's I passed out, then woke up on Sunday with ringing loud and clear, and the voices of my friends a little faint and far away.

Thea: Your chicken is still on your car, did you want it?

I was a little brain dead yesterday to say the least, as if every brain cell I had decided to take a day off. We left John's appartment to go back to Kamloops, and I was about to put the chicken in the car, but must have forgot, and left it on the roof. Somehow, the chicken and the silicone container it was in managed to stay on my car, hanging off the back end after I parked at Tim Hortons where we had a lunch prior to leaving town. I threw the chicken out at that point, because my car was dirty on the top. I did a couple other stupid things over the weekend which I just won't get into.

JOHN'S ATTITUDE TOWARDS KAMLOOPS

John: Al you're a Kamloops lifer.
me: No I'm not.
John: Lifer!
me: Hey, as soon as I get my degree, I'm out of that town.

John likes to hack on me because I live in Kamloops and he doesn't like it. He told me how he and his friend Keith actually made a list of all the things they don't like about Kamloops while they were here, which is pretty lame I think. Of course you're not going to enjoy a place if you just complain and bitch about it. He can joke all he wants, but he just didn't give this city a chance. I don't mind Kamloops, and I think the people are cool and not stupid like he calls them. I do have to say after being in Calgary for the weekend I'd rather live there, but we can't all be so lucky. Anyhow, I'm in Kamloops now, and I'm going to make the most out of it.

GETTING INTO THE SWING OF THINGS

I'm starting to gradually make the transformation from summer to school, and it only took me a week. But I'm still not completely there. I'm already falling a little behind on the readings and it's the second week of classes. How sad is that? I tend not to think about it too much, or worry about it, because I think of the good times spend with friends that I'm subsituting over homework time. Plus, there really isn't any major assignments due right away. I'm still doing okay, because I haven't found the classes to be at all over my head yet, and the discussions are all pretty general, common sense, type issues.
Today in journalism 331, the Introduction to Writing and Editing, we went over grammar, something I have to say I don't mind doing at all. I've always been strong at grammar, and I enjoy identifying parts of speech in different sentences, plus we get to work in small groups which I enjoy a lot, more than classroom discussions because you're not talking across the whole classroom talking above other people just itching to explain their own opinions on matters.
Yesterday in online journalism, we discussed the impact of the internet, and although I wasn't really involved in the discussion, and my mind drifted a bit, I took some notes for future use. It was pretty straight forward anyways.

I'm also getting my life back on track, which has been going off-road lately, like this past weekend. I never got a whole lot accomplished, aside from some Omega work, and my mind has on anything but school lately, and on other people. For the first time in a while, I felt I had really something going with a girl, a girl I won't mention the name of. We had a great time hanging out on Friday night, things were going great, and then just two days later, on Sunday night, we had an argument and I left. After I went to apologize to her last night, she said she didn't care, and at that time I knew that she isn't for me at all. When I hear the response "I don't care" after I say "I'm sorry", I know the feelings just aren't mutual. The response I was looking for was more around the lines of "thanks" or "it's okay" because I never thought the things I said to her on Sunday night were as bad as she was telling people. I think I'm over it anyways, we didn't have a whole lot in common. She likes guys with trucks, I drive a car. She likes smaller towns, I love the city, which brings me to my next topic.

TRIP TO CALGARY THIS WEEKEND

In under three days I'll be on the road to Calgary to see my friend John, and I am pretty pumped about that. The girls in Alberta will be awesome, the drinking will be great, and my friend Thea is of age in Alberta. I'm going with her, and my other friends Jordan and Chris. If I can remember some good quotes I will definetely post them, because it's going to be a lot of fun. My ex-girlfriend Nicole lives in Red Deer and wants me to come visit her, so I'm going to try and work something out there as well. We'll see.
Preparation for the trip will continue over the next couple days. I've burnt a couple of CD's, but I'm thinking at least one more for the trip would be ideal. I also still have a fair bit of cash from the summer I plan to definetely spend on alcohol and other stuff. Ya know, the real smart investments. The camera will be out and I plan to take some good pictures. After originally intending to attend a Stampeders home game against the Winnipeg Blue Bombers, taking place on Sunday afternoon at 2 p.m., I just can't see that happening anymore. The drive from Calgary back here is a little long. I do plan to go around downtown, and check out the University of Calgary, and Mount Royal College, where a few of Jordan's friend go to school. And there's a good chance we'll end up going to The Back Alley drinking on Saturday night. Anyways, that is that, and I'm looking forward to another road trip.

LATE NIGHTS AND EARLY MORNINGS

Man, I am just not really prepared for the heavy workload of another school year. I just don't understand some people, how they can just start right away on school, hitting the books and preparing early for assignments due long down the road. Once a procrastinator, always a procrastinator - that's me! I don't use the books until I need to. Actually I do intend on getting down to business soon. But it's early in the term - very early. In another couple weeks I'll be ready to get down to work, but I need to gradually lay off the alcohol, partying and lack of sleep. It isn't going to come right away. 9 a.m. classes are a pain in the ass! I've got 4 this term, and I am not a morning person at all.
Last night was my second consecutive late night drinking. Both last night and Monday night I didn't get home until about 3 a.m. because I was out drinking. I should lay off for a couple days to recover I suppose.
Wow, It's time for me to get to class already. I'm out.